Never hurts to remember that “your wants won’t kill you”. That’s a line I heard a lot as a kid. Those saying it had lived through long, hard years. The little they had was earned, not given. They knew to focus on the needs. They taught me something important there.
Lately my world hasn’t been the same. I want a lot of things. To be physically normal would be nice. Mental normalcy would be great. Sitting still isn’t my forte so the physical issues have caused a litany of headaches. The aching head is the biggest headache though. The dizziness and feeling as though I were drunk for the last month has stink, stank, stunk. My brain (literally) needs rest. It needs it at the time the dam has broken and it is most needed.
Someone came by again. They’ve driven me about and helped in so many ways over the last three days. It has allowed my brain to rest. It isn’t what I wanted, it’s what I needed.
Those three days of rest have my head clearer this morning. Feels like fog lifting off a bay. Typing this has the fog building again but it’s worth it to remind others to mind their needs. Dislike stopping here but I need to stop that fog.
Hope y’all are all well.
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Grateful you take the time to update us, C. Please allow your body to heal. It may seem like it’s dragging on and on, but it’s a blink in time if you do what needs done to take care of you. You have to allow for this…
You’re missed here, but thought of often. I’m glad you have people surrounding you with love. I’d duck tape you to your favorite chair if I was there. I’m ruthless though…
Hugs ā”
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I smell a trend amongst “I woulds…” that makes the followers seem rather intent. I appreciate it though. Bloglandia quickly tires my mind now. (Internet & reading do same.) It is as though I were drunk within minutes. Sorry for brevity and incomplete nature of the post and my recent replies.
Thank you for caring ma’am.
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Somehow I missed this yesterday. The this being reading this post and also you typing this post! I’m giggling because I even mentioned your WordPress to you! I’m sorry that it is a slower recovery than you wish. But I am glad that you are wise enough to give yourself rest. You are such a giving man, always willing to step in and help others, often seeing needs others overlook. I am glad you aren’t overlooking your own needs.
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I fear that I still am. Everyone needs “one more thing” and I always see “just one more thing”, hence the post. I’m blessed with folks who care both here locally, in the larger world and Bloglandia. Who do I not update? Who do I not help when they are in need? It’s how a three hours then rest day becomes 10 hours then rest. The 12-15 hour days right after I got out of the hospital accomplished a lot of important things. They saw a lot done while wound care was handled and minded. Physically, many things healed. (Some will be months.) I didn’t know the damage I was doing mentally though. Not knowing about that concussion will be a haunting thing. I needed a deserted island for a month.
Hindsight is 20/20 isn’t it? Your care is a big part of my being where I am and is greatly appreciated. But, now, my going until noon has stretched past 1400. Time to rest and stare at a wall to rest my mind.
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Take the time to heal. It’s never wasted.
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You state the obvious, what I would tell anyone. My “Big Brother” streak brings a lot of good to the world but that caring currently has a cost. It’s a thing that I’m struggling to balance. Ignorance for the first month factors greatly in my current problems.
Your comment is welcome and appreciated though. Following it is my goal.
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I hope that you manage to stay still and let the fog clear again. The things that are important will wait for you I am sure and when you are ready and well enough to enjoy them again without pain, the will be all the more meaningful. Here’s hoping that you are well rested when you read this and have followed your own advice š
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Hope granted. Well rested & (relatively) clear headed at the moment. Ribs hurt but that’s every morning and will be for some time. Going to work for a couple of hours then stop. Spend most of day resting then about an hour of work late afternoon. Doing this the last four days has made a noticeable difference mentally and physically.
Hope your day went well ma’am.
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I remember those trips with fondness. The boundless energy was a reminder of the age gap though! It’s wonderful to know that you had a blast and showed a wonderfully lesson through your acts.
Hope a good time was had by all and you rest well ma’am.
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