Very careful actually. Sometimes you get what you wished for and wished you didn’t have it after all. I suppose this thought is an odd way to dip a toe back into Bloglandia but it’s the toe that got here first. Let’s see if I can explain that toe.
I’m sitting with my leg up after a long day. A thirty minute respite before feet on the floor and more “to-dos” get “to-done” while there is daylight left. This rest brought y’all to mind. When I stepped back, it was never intended to be for this long. Life kept extending the intertwined problems, the work kept piling on and the stress slowly grew. Y’all weren’t forgotten but a life comprised of work and sleep makes Jack a dull playmate. Thinking today, I wanted to check in. A scan of posts for the last day or two made me sad to have went without your companionship. Good, bad, sad, funny or steamy, you gave me different thoughts and other points of view. You have, indeed, been missed.
So, where have I been? In lowlands I suppose, I was certainly swamped! The whole story is something I intend to lay out later as it may give a deserved insight into the who and what of me but, for now, let’s recap. My “day” life and the troubles in my personal life worsened in lockstep over the last two years. By this spring they were at a head. A change that I started on a year ago was planned to arrive in February or March. It would bring a whole new normal but it was what the situation required. That change went from February to March to, finally, the end of April. Couldn’t come soon enough for me as options had basically become non-existent. For about three months my life pretty much consisted of round-robin meetings with lawyers, bankers, bookkeepers, accountants, regulators of every level and stripe, court, businesses and volunteers. There had to be a way through and it was my task to find it. Slowly but surely I did. The seemingly impossible was on track to be done by the end of April. It’s accomplishment would trigger a new flurry of work BUT, this time it would be positive. The closure of problems public and private along with the chance to finally move forward with a clear concentration on the road ahead and no burdens left behind. It would take a month of hard work but at least I’d be smiling!
So….., the end of April rolls around, the beginning of the end is days away and I’m ready for it. Excellent, let’s go! On a pretty Saturday I notice a cow in the road near my house. Send the girl to get the dogs and head out for it on the four-wheeler. Nothing fast or rushed, just beats walking. Got there, got off, and the silly cow started moving. “Might as well get turned around and get in front of her” I thought as I headed back to the four-wheeler. I don’t remember getting on, my next recollection is pavement sideways in my field of view and the lower half of an ambulance wheel rolling past. “What’s that doing here?” Turns out someone had a freak, brutal accident. That someone spent Easter and part of the following week in Neurological Intensive Care. Everything but the right thigh had damage. The skull fractures and broken ribs were the headliners of the show I suppose. Needless to say, the long awaited date was one (ironically) I couldn’t make.
The event has now come to pass. Thanks to the care of a wonderful friend who donated a week of their time, I had a good start and have steadily improved. It will be 6 months to a year (realistically) before I’m normal. (Wasn’t exactly “normal” before but you get the idea.) I started chipping away at the “to-do” list today. Slowly and patiently doing what mentally and physically can be done while always remembering that I can do more tomorrow.
The reason for all of this is simple I guess. Want y’all to know you aren’t ignored or forgotten. You are akin to those ribs, somewhat out of sight but always on my mind and certainly not forgotten. Hope you’ve been well, see you again soon.